Striving for Authenticity

I’ve been hard at work recently, working on the Enchanted Herbal, among many other things, and perhaps the hardest challenge I have faced thus far is how to channel the voice inside me and ignore the inner censor that tells me that what I write is not good enough / too flowery / not short and sharp enough / etc etc etc.   It is proving a constant struggle to ignore the censor and channel the little inner part of me that is a story teller, that wants to write stories and write them from the heart, from the soul, and to hell with what anyone else thinks.   It seems to be a constant test of trust for myself and my inner voice, to write what I need to write and be damned to the consequences.  I suppose part of it is a fear of rejection.  To write from that small, intimate place inside is to invite others to criticize a part of myself, and to lay my soul on the line in that way is hard work and leaves you rather wide open to getting hurt.
But I don’t care.  The small part of me that needs to write, needs to tell these stories and share them, is also steadfastly refusing to be silenced, so I shall continue to forge onwards with the book, the stories, the tellings themselves, and if it falls flat, at least I know I have tried, and tried hard, given my all, and not allowed fear to silence me as it so often has in the past.

 

And so…
Once upon a long distant time…

3 thoughts on “Striving for Authenticity

  1. I get that inner voice of doubt a lot too when I’m working on novel ideas.
    I’ve even abandoned a few because of it when I first got started, but I’m getting better at ignoring it lately 🙂
    I still feel nervous and a bit uncomfortable letting other people read what I’ve written though.

    Anyways, I hope you keep on going with it 🙂
    I’ve read the stories and poems you’ve posted on here before and I think you have a very good imagination and a talent for putting real emotion into your words. I’m sure you’ll be just fine 🙂

    If that voice keeps giving you trouble, just do what I do and lock it in a dusty old spider-infested cupboard at the back of your mind until you’re done 🙂 hehe

    Cheering you on here 🙂

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